I’ll be completely honest with you guys. I am stressed out most of the time. Every single second there is something in the back of my head, something that makes me nervous. I seriously don’t know when was the last time I actually enjoyed life. Well on second thoughts, that will be January when I went on a trip with my extended family. But every time I come to the blogosphere, or log on to facebook I meet those people. People who are never stressed, people who always remain positive no matter what life throws at them. Every time I visit their blogs or visit their profiles, it leaves me energized. It is as if they radiate a positive energy all around them, they pass on some of that infectious charisma to everyone around them.
And I visit them so often, it has become sort of like an obsession for me. Like a drug addict needing his daily fix, I do it every single day.
But something really, really makes me angry. How is it that they can? I mean, I tried it, I tried to use their positivity to transform myself into someone better, but the fractured chaos reigning around me sends me back to my old self again. When I have a deadline approaching, when I have a talk coming up, I evoke copious amounts of venomous anxiety which strikes me down. Despite all the positivity that I imbibe from these people, I get bogged down again and again. I can’t understand.
I don’t want to be one of those people who bitches and moans about how unfair life has been. I want to be the guy who radiates infectious joy and happiness, who is always happy and pleasant.
But how do I do it??
I’d really appreciate it if someone would help me out here. Not just me, I think a whole lot of people would benefit from this…